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| My Dilemma
by breeze341 at 8/4/2008 3:38:44 AM
I get tons of email & am having a hard time keeping up with them. Most of the time it's from men who do not read my profile. I try to be polite and do the right thing & answer back explaining that I am not available for any kind of relationship at this time. About an eighth of the time I get rude emails back telling me off because I'm on this site therefore I'm available.
I'm getting tired of explaining that I have some personal issues that I'm dealing with & that I'm on this site to keep in contact with friends. Only a few people actually knew what was happening & I did get a few emails after my bucket list blog.
HERE IS MY DILEMA. My father was diagnosed with cancer in March. The doctor's have given us a 40-60% chance of survival with chemotherapy, without it was 5 to 9 months. My father has been taking the strongest dosage of chemo available since June. It has now been 7 mnths since he was diagnosed and 4 mnths with the chemo & we are all as scared as hell but don't mention it to each other. Not only are we dealing with the physical illness but the emotional & mental damage this cancer has caused.
My parents & I have sold our homes & now live in one large home together so we can help each other out. He has tubes that run into his chest that need to be cared for daily as well as giving the proper meds for his care. My mother cannot do this for him so the responsibility is with me.
Even though he does not feel well he gets outside & tries to do some kind of work or landscaping. He has never been a man to sit idle.
HERE IS MY WISH. For those of you who do not know me, who do not post in the forums & were just browsing through the profiles & actually read this blog ... please do not email me a letter. I appreciate the kinds words but it's kind of strange to recieve an email from a stranger on such a personal issue. Also please understand how hard it was to write this & that I feel like I was pushed into doing so.
For my friends that were aware of this...your support has been wonderful. You guys are awesome & have given me the much needed laughs so I can be strong & be the positive force in this house. All of you carry a special place in my heart.
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